Emma Geneva is published

 

       Well this is the official cover of my first book in what I call The Bride Series.

It was done by a high school student at the local high school.  It is about Matthew Godwin and Deborah Ramsey. 

The second book is titled His Blessed Bride It will be about John (and Susanna).

The Third  (untitled ) will be about Luke (and Elizabeth).

The Forth and final (untitled) will be about Mark the youngest brother (and Rhonda).

A New Chapter/A New Life

   

 It has been a while since I have posted and to be honest a lot has gone on and I have simply forgotten so here goes. 

    Almost three years ago I quite my job as a retail merchandiser because my husband said I wasn't making enough and that I needed a full time job with benefits, problem is he wants me to stay home with our daughter who is autistic and has ADHD. She is on several medications in an attempt to control it but the medication combination isn't right yet. Anyway I got a job that was a work from home job, with full benefits, you'd think that would please my husband, but that is a giant NO. Seems I spend too much time working instead of doing what he wants done. 

    I was naive in thinking he'd actually help in the day to day things around the house. NO all he could do was complain about what a bad person I am, how stupid I am, and also that I'll never amount to anything and what a sorry wife I am. I ended up quitting the work from home job, a job I loved and got fulfillment out of, all for a man who doesn't give a damn about me. I guess I am a sorry excuse for a human being, let alone a wife. I could not take the constant complaining from my husband and yes he got our daughter on his side so if he talks trash to me our daughter is right there beside him doing the same thing. 

    I'm sorry Husband, its hard to want to take care of a household that doesn't give a damn about me and quite honestly never really has in the last fifteen years. You may ask do I have proof of this, and I am truthful when I say yes I have concrete evidence. We have been married almost eighteen years, you'd think I'd be the beneficiary on his 401k, pension, life insurance, everything that would give me something to live off of should something ever happen to him, but no, his mother is his sole beneficiary, not me, not our daughter. I asked him if he would change it to at least our daughter, he claimed he never got around to it said he would change it, but when he got the statement in the mail (he gets one every three months) his mother was listed and being the 100% beneficiary, and according to the statement he received two months ago she still is. As his wife I have access to the mail so he lied to me about who would get everything should anything happen to him. If anything happens to him his mother gets it all, his money, his share of the house, his cars everything. I'll be left with nothing but what I have now or what I have saved. 

    Several years ago we were having a discussion I bought up his mother being in control of his life, he got angry in a flash and informed me that his mother would always be more important to him than I would ever be. To put it mildly I was hurt and ever since then I have understood I will never be important to him. I was in a car accident (deer hit the car). When I called him to tell him what had happened on my way home from going to the store to get his beer he came and all he could do was berate me about hitting a deer. I was upset, barely conscious and all he can do is tell me I'm an idiot. Sometimes I wish I had died in that accident, but God had other plans for me (but that's another entry).