Fall 2015 semester starts

     Well I had my first day of school this semester and for the business law class I have the same teacher I had for the marketing class. Mr. Erby is a older teacher and sometimes some students will joke that he laid part of the foundation for the building itself, in reality he has been out there 43 years and he will admit he could retire, and that he will when the time is right, or when he feels like it.

     I am taking two online classes this semester and to be honest I was a bit scared about the ENG165 class but one of the girls in the class I am taking on campus told me the class was not hard at all and she took it over the summer. That gave me a relieved feeling. The other online class I am taking is managerial accounting. This is the first accounting class I have taken online and I hope I do well, after all I want to keep a high GPA, currently it is 3.8.

   My academic goal is to graduate with honors and I am already a member of two honor society's so I am well on my way to accomplishing my goal. If I could say what my dream job is that would be to have a job ad the IRS. A job like that would give me recognition and it would also pay well, but my ultimate goal is to get a job so that the pressure will be off my husband when he goes to work, but it isn't just that I would like to have a job because I just want one. Having a job does gives me a feeling of independence and accomplishment, and yes I also have pride in myself.

     The accounting field is a very broad field because it not only covers accounting it also covers business fields. As I was explaining to my mother some jobs require that you have a business degree and that could be business or it could be accounting because accounting is considered business, but if the job requires an accounting degree that means that if you have a business degree with out the accounting specialty then you do not qualify for the job. Having a degree in accounting just has more job opportunities in general. I am not going to lie accounting is not easy but if you can master it you might just do well in the long run.

   

Bachelors degree in accounting, maybe

     Today is Saturday morning and school starts Monday for me, it starts Wednesday for my daughter. A part of me is excited and a part of me is not. I will be glad to get my degree and at the same time I will miss the school time  have had. I enjoy learning new things and to be completely honest a part of me is seriously considering pursuing a bachelors degree in accounting. I have looked into several online classes that have the entire class online and I think that I just might be able to do it. Several people have done it and I know that I can. The problem is that my husband had a friend who's wife got her degree in accounting and as soon as that happened her attitude changed and things started going downhill in the marriage, and my husband thinks that may happen to me, it won't.

     The friend who's wife did this is a child of divorce and when they for married both of them were under 22. The friend was brought up in a home where the woman, or wife is the head of the house, and according to the bible that is not how it is suppose to be. I however was brought up in a house where the man. or husband is the head of the house as was my husband. I am also a submissive wife, which makes a difference as far as how a husband and wife interact with each other.

     I may never get a bachelors degree in accounting but I will say this if I can get a few classes in and not have to pay anything I will make an attempt to go for it. 

getting ready for school

     My daughter is starting 3rd grade and I am entering another semester towards completing my associates degree in accounting.  After this semester I will only have one semester left, the thing is the last semester I will have to enroll as a full time student because I will need to take four classes to earn the degree. I hope that the college offers the classes I need. I am fairly sure that the college will offer at least two of the classes business math and QuickBooks, but I also need to take cost accounting and payroll accounting. The classes I need have been online classes and, as a matter of fact the cost accounting is always an online class but the payroll has been both. If the classes I need are not offered I will have to wait until they are.

    

Lynyrd Skynyrd - Free Bird

This is the song my husband and I heard on our first date. It was played by three different bands in the same night, making the night one to remember.

Books for sale

     I have several college textbooks that I put for sale on the college Facebook page. I did not think I would sale any of them then all of the sudden people started contacting me like crazy. I guess I am going to make a bit of money from these books after all. The semester starts in less than a week so I guess the students are all getting ready to purchase the books before the semester starts and try to save a bit of money, I can't say that I blame them.

Wedding fun and a happy day

     Well when I went to the wedding of my husbands cousin last Saturday it started out not to good then it promptly changed to a wonderfully great time. I will say this I wish Morgan and Jason the very best I hope they have a long and happy marriage. 

A family wedding today.

          My family is going to a wedding today, it is the wedding of my husbands cousins daughter. I have not met the girl very often but I will say one thing about her, this child is very spoiled by her parents.

     She wanted my husband to drive her to the church in the car he restored that was her great grandfather's car, but changed her mind when she found out that the car did not have air conditioning. The car is a 1959 ford air conditioning was something that cars back then just did not have, anyway, she opted for a limo that charges $300 per hour for the first two hours and $150 for every additional hour. 

      I really feel sorry for her parents because as spoiled as she is the marriage may not make it. I can say with truthfulness and almost 10 years experience that marriage takes work, it is not a walk in the park and it is not easy. It takes a certain amount of maturity to get married and stay that way, I just hope I am wrong, only time will tell.

UPDATE

June 2016

I went to the wedding and I can say I had the best time in my life there, definitely more fun than at my brothers wedding where all you could do was sit there and wait at a long table and not sit with your family. The thing I should say it that the wedding was a while back and since them the newlyweds had welcomed a daughter into the family. I wish them the best and I hope they will be great parents.



5 AM and no power

   
 I woke up this morning at 5:15 am to no power. We had a downpour last night so I can only guess that someone on the way to work must have gotten in an accident and hit something. I do know that it was very widespread. My electric company is normally pretty good when it comes to getting the power on and this time was no exception, the power was out only two hours. My daughter asked why we didn't get out the candles, I told her there was really no reason to get the candles out because the sun was coming up.
   

Our Song: Free Bird

     Yesterday after I got back from having my second mammogram my husband was waiting for me, I can say without any hesitation that I was very glad to see him. Normally I am the one waiting for him but this time it was him waiting for me.     

     As the day progressed and it was almost time for our evening meal and we were sitting on the outside swing and he looked over at me and said in a loving voice, "Its been 10 years do you have any regrets about marrying me".

     I looked back at him and said without a moments hesitation, "No I have no regrets, none at all". It was then that he got up and put a CD in the CD player the song that he tuned it to was the song that was played over and over on our first date 10 years ago.

    Our first date was about 10 months before our wedding. It was  on July 3 at an independence day celebration. At the celebration there were 3 bands playing the same song in three different versions and the song was Free Bird originally preformed by Lynyrd Skynyrd. I never thought of it before but if I could say we as a couple have a song that would be it. It sums up our relationship in more ways than one and it is the song that was played over and over on our first date. Now every time I hear that song I can't help but smile and think about the wonderful man I married.

Second Mammogram results

     I went for my second mammogram yesterday afternoon and the results were that there was nothing there. I seems that I have what is called dense breast tissue and finding a lump or something out of the ordinary is often harder than normal. The doctor informed me that it might be in my best interest to have a 3D mammogram done next year. I was told that this makes it easier to find a lump of any kind if there is one there in the first place, plus is will make it less likely for a second trip if by some chance the breast tissue decided to clump together again.

     The mammogram technician yesterday informed me that when the mammogram was taken the "lump" actually spread out and dispersed, if it was an actual lump this would have not happened. The doctor also asked me several questions that could determine what my chances are of developing breast cancer before the age of 90, my rate was 14.1 %. She said anything over 20% is when they take extra precautions. So I am safer than the average person, at least until I am 90, which is quite a while from now.

Mammogram worries

    

Today I am going for my second mammogram after I was informed that the radiologist found something on the one I took last Thursday. To put it mildly I am a bit scared but not like I was when this happened two years ago. I am going up there prepared to have an ultrasound done as well. The last time this happened, according to the ultrasound it was just a pocket of fluid. I am hopeful that this is all it is again, if it isn't my husband and I will deal with it.

     My husband is not going with me this time, my mother and my 8 year old daughter are going with me. I hope is does not take long, I just suppose it depends on how many other people are having things done.

     When I was informed that something had been found in my left breast I hate to admit it but I asked my husband not to tell his parents. If you are wondering why I can tell you that the reason why is because I know that his mother will tell just about everyone in the my husbands family about what is going on, and I really don't want everyone to know about it. This is a private matter as far as I am concerned, and I don't want everyone and their brother needs to know. If the mammogram as well as the ultrasound show something then I guess I will have to let my husband tell them but until I know for sure I would rather keep it quiet.

    

A Doctor's visit. Is all well?

     When I go to the doctor it is a hour drive, it may be a bit far for some people to drive to see a doctor but where I live you can sit in the doctors office three hours until you are seen. It is actually faster to drive an hour, see the doctor and then drive back home for a hour, than it is to see the doctor that is 15 minutes away. Anyway, last Thursday I went to the doctor for my yearly check-up and mammogram. It was pretty routine and I did not expect anything out of the ordinary. I have had no problems for the past few years so I did not expect any problems this time. I was wrong.

     I got a call from the radiology department. It seems that after looking at my mammogram the radiologist found something and I have to go back and have another one. To put it mildly I was upset. I had a lump in my breast that had to be removed just over 10 years ago and that was a scary experience. The main thing that is the difference between then and now it the fact that I have a husband now, 11 years ago I didn't.

     The moment my husband got home from work he could tell something was wrong. I can say with complete and utter honesty I was glad to see him. I did not tell him what it was at first I simply stood there and let him wrap his arms around me, I needed his strength and he gave it to me.

     As I composed myself I told him what the radiologist said, and that I needed to go back and have another mammogram, and perhaps a ultrasound. I have been through this before, two years ago when I had my yearly mammogram I had to make a second trip when the radiologist found something on the first mammogram image, when it was on the second one I was promptly sent to have an ultrasound where is was discovered that it was only a pocket of fluid. 

     I hope that a pocket of fluid is all that it is, and in my heart I think that is exactly what it is, the problem is that I won't be sure until I make the hour drive and have the mammogram and possibly ultrasound done. I am just glad that I have a husband that will stand beside me and be the supportive man I need when I need it.

my loving husband

 

North Myrtle Beach's perfect place to stay.

     When my family goes to the beach we stay at the Jamaica Motel. Unlike many other places at the beach this place is clean and the maids do not run you out of the room when they come to clean the room.

     This motel is located on north ocean Blvd, North Myrtle Beach. This motel is privately owned and the owners actually own the building and live on the premises.  All the rooms are ocean front and many of them come with a stove and oven which I can say works just fine because and I have cooked quite a few meals on it instead of paying $40+ for a plate for food at chain restaurants just four blocks away.

Going to School:Update

NTHS certificate

NTHS inductees

      I have been going to school to earn my college associates degree for the past two years and I can say that I am nearing completion. When I am finished I will have an associates degree in accounting. I have been told that getting a degree in accounting is one of the hardest ones to get but so far I have had really not much of a problem. I have kept my grades up and I have been accepted in two honor societies, NTHS (National Technical Honor Society), and Phi Theta Kappa. I was also chosen to be a marshal at this years graduation.

     As of now I only have 7 more classes to go Acc115, Eng165, Bus121 which I am taking the coming semester and then I have to take Acc230, Acc150, Acc240, and Bus 140. I am hopeful that all the classes will be offered for the Spring 2016 semester. I know that three of them are suppose to but I am not sure about one of them, the Acc150 class.

     Most, or should I say half of my classes have been online classes. I am a full-time wife and mother, I also have a part time job so juggling everything can be a bit of a challenge at times (especially at a certain time of the month) online classes make it easier to do a lot of it. One thing I like about taking online classes I can be at home with my daughter not worry about finding a sitter this is especially good during the summer, because I take summer classes in the hopes of finishing my degree faster. I also take classes during the summer because I had a Pell grant and I normally have enough left over to take two more classes during the summer to use up the money.

     So far I have attained a GPA of 3.8, keep in mind that 4.0 is perfect. When I graduated from high school in 1988 there was no such thing as a GPA. Honestly I had no idea what it was, it took me a while but I figured it out how a GPA is calculated and I can say that I am very proud of my GPA. I mean I am 45 years old, and I will be 46 when I receive my degree I think I am going pretty well.

Phi Theta Kappa inductees

Marshal at the 2015 graduation ceremony

A broom standing on its own

     This happened a while back but this is a broom standing by itself. I was told by several people that a broom could do this and I just wanted to see for myself if I could do it, I guess I could.

Jayne's jack-o-lantern

My daughters art work at Halloween. I just ran across the picture and thought it was cute.

Premenstral Depression, it is not pretty

     When people look at me they may think that woman has everything, a loving husband, and beautiful daughter, a home to call her own, she's going to school and she has a part time job that has no set hours which means she can sleep in everyday of the week or simply not go in at all if she chooses. Problem is this woman does have a problem, it's called premenstrual depression and she can hide very well.

     As most women know, at a certain time of the month a woman's emotions often go into overdrive. I am no exception. A few days before my period several things happen, physically I have just about the worse case of diarrhea a person can have this includes cramps that make you fall to your knees and double over in pain, and sitting on the toilet for at least an hour or two. When this is finally over you are so weak that you can't function because you are so drained of energy because of the diarrhea you just had, but this pales in comparison to the depression that follows.

     When I say depression I mean suicidal depression and it can me very severe at times. I have been able to fight it off and keep my family in the dark about the severity of it but as I get older the bouts are getting worse and more intense. I will cut myself and watched as my life blood drains out of me then I will cry, panic and crawl into bed praying for a death that never comes.

     I have always felt that I was never good enough, that I was ugly, stupid, unworthy. This probably stems from the fact that when I was 5 my dad told me he wished I had never been born, or that he wished I had been born a boy instead of a girl. My mom even admitted that she had often thought of killing me as a child. One time when I was about thirteen my family was visiting a church, the preacher's wife walked up to me and with a smile looked me in the eye and said your sister is so much prettier than you are. The preachers wife tells me this, you can imagine how hurt I was, to be honest I was close to tears, I mean how could anyone especially the preachers wife say that to a child that is a visitor in Gods house. This is just the tip of the iceberg I had to deal with while growing up.

     When I got married my spirits were lifted for a few years. I had a loving husband, we had a beautiful daughter and everything seemed right in the world. I became a stay-at-home mom while my husband would go to work. Oh, we had ups and downs but when you are married what couple doesn't, especially when you add a child to the mix and the two people have been married less than a year. I can say the first two years were hard, we were getting used to each other as people then we turned into parents six weeks before our first anniversary, talk about a lot to go through in one year, but we made it.

     Then our daughter starts school and I need something to get rid of all these depression thoughts going through my head. So I get a part time job working as a retail merchandiser for Hallmark card company. This job has no set hours and it does not interfere with my family time at home. When that wasn't enough I think my husband caught on to the fact that something was wrong so he suggested I go to back to school and work on the degree that my parents said I would never be good enough to achieve. So I enrolled and I have a 3.8 GPA so far and I only have one year to go.

     With all this going on you would think that my mind would not have time to wander and that depression would not be able to reared its ugly head, but that is not how depression works, it still enters my thoughts and sometimes it is a bit overwhelming especially when it is time for Aunt Flo's visit. I am going to beat this because life is worth living and I am going to live it.